I’m starting to put the pieces together. Somewhere along the way, you realized I wasn’t the one for you. That’s when you stopped texting me as much, or calling me as much. You stopped being sweet and caring. You stopped telling me that you love me on a daily basis. You stopped telling me that you miss every second of the day. Why was I so blind to not see all of this? I know with my whole heart that we can never fix this. You cannot simply ask your significant other to move, then tell someone else that you have not found “the one.” You lied to me, and broke my heart. But it’s okay. Better now than later. If you cared enough, you wouldn’t let me simply walk away. But it’s okay, because now I see more clearly than ever. You never loved me and you never will.
And there’s a little part of me that wishes this was just a nightmare, and that when I wake up you’ll still be there with things being perfectly fine.
I don’t think people will notice when I move… No one calls me. No one texts me. I text them or call them to see if they want to hang with T and I, and we get ignored or ditched. It’s so easy to say “omg, i miss you and want to see T.” but when it comes down to it, they’d rather be off doing something else than hanging out with me. It sucks not having any friends that I can talk to or hang out with.
Even my “best friends”. I think my boyfriend is getting tired of all of my girl talk… Hahaha.
When I’m with you, time seems to just fly out the window. All of the time we have in this world is not enough. But when we’re apart? It seems to just drag on forever. Every day seems to slowly pass before the next day starts. I’m counting down the days until I’ll be able to see you again. I know we’re just getting started, but I’m excited to see what the future has in store for us.
Sometimes you have to forgive and forget. Forgive them for hurting you and forget that they exist.